I have spent the past 10 years finding ways to distract myself from constant exhaustion and pain. All things considered, I think I did a pretty good job of it! As Dory would say, “Just keep swimming”. And that’s what I did.
What is currently tripping me up is the need for constant self observation. I learned a few months ago that my pain, exhaustion, anxiety and depression may be food related. If I felt like crap previously, I would curl up in a blanket and distract myself. Now I’m trying to figure out what I ate that did it to me.
I’ve given up gluten and dairy for the past four months. I don’t worry about cross contamination, but sometimes I wonder if I should. That has been a fun roller coaster of feeling great one day and eating something that should not have given me and reaction, and still feeling like crap again. A couple weeks ago, I’ve tried giving up added sugars. I live for sugar so that hasn’t been a walk in the park. I’m getting more testing done soon, but going from ignoring the pain to constantly trying to figure out what caused it is fucking with my head right now.
#Depression #Anxiety #Glutenfree #Dairyfree #ChronicPain