depressingthoughts

Several thoughts are running in my mind from past few days and they are just making me to feel worthless. I question myself daily that "Will I able to do something in my life ? " because whenever I try to do something which I love I m just unable to do . it's not because I didn't want to , it's because my anxiety and depression doesn't let me . I hope you are getting my point. it's hard to focus and concentrate with depression . I don't know how I will get out of this but I m getting tired day by day . I m getting imprisoned in my own mind. My thoughts are killing me . #Depression #depressingthoughts #worthlesss #tired

Hello everyone!
I m Muskan Agrawal from India .
I m new to this so I thought to introduce myself .
Now talking about my mental illness,as far as I know I have suffered from anxiety since from an early age. I m 19 now .. I was always anxious when i was small , I used to worry on every little thing . However, from past two years I m suffering from depression and it came into in my life in a very unexpected way .My friends,my family everyone considers me as a happy girl but what happens inside me no one knows .I m full of darkness from inside . Depression has engulfed me completely .No one knows what I do behind these closed doors of my hostel .There are days when I do nothing except crying and crying .I have those few genuine moments in which my laugh or smile is real. But for the most part, even when I’m smiling or laughing, I’m breaking on the inside. Even when I try to have those moments of happiness and pureness, depression still lingers; reminding me that the sadness is greater. I wish I could just tell people that. I wish I didn’t have to pretend. In all honesty, it’s the most exhausting thing I have ever done .I think about death on a regular basis but still I m living in a hope that one day I will get out of this .
#Depression #Anxiety #depressingthoughts #suicidal