tired

I waited eight months for a referral appointment with this psychiatrist. I took the morning off work today and stared at my phone for an hour while I waited for his call. Nothing.
I called his office and left a message. Nothing.
What am I supposed to do? I am so tired of trying to get medical help with my depression, anxiety, and ptsd symptoms. I am just so tired.
I called in sick to work and I'm just staying at home and letting the tears fall. I guess I'll count that as my win today - putting my needs ahead of what is happening at work.

#CheckInWithMe #Depression #Anxiety #PTSD #MentalHealth #Psychiatrist #Medication #tired

Hi there all my people!! It s been a while since I’ve posted. For some reason I couldn’t get The ap to download! So how s everyone doing? I’m hopi g you all are having a better time of things and you’re all looking forward to fall! The colors the crisp air the fact we can wear our favorite sweaters! So for me…. Tomorrow is my first visit with a new Endochronologist…. Haven’t had one in a while (other dr s of mine have been dealing with the adrenal issues) so I’m a little worked up a little nervous but hey!! I’m a big girl ! I got this!! I do t know about you all but I’ve not “asked” husband to go with me to any dr s appts in forever….. he s too busy with work, his mother etc . How many of you get the feeling if they (your spouse or significant others) go with you to dr s appts they “use” the info against you at a later date? I’m not sure if I’m justified in feeling that way but I do sometimes….. I take very good notes while I’m at the dr s (which I suggest you all do!) so I just look back on those notes if I’ve forgotten something. So anyways…. Just wanted to say Sorry for not being on here lately….. and say HELLO!! I hope the rest of your Sunday is as perfect as it gets and that you all are feeling good today!! Hugs to all of you! And Thank you for being here for me to rant to, vent to, bounce things off of and just simply for being kind humans!!!

I'm so sick of the invalidation I receive almost on a daily basis. Just because my disability isn't one of the "acceptable" disabilities. Why do I always have to prove myself? Why am I always being questioned? I want to be able to tell people about what I have and get the services I need without jumping through the hoops I genuinely can't jump through. I don't want to be dismissed anymore. I want to be seen and heard. Just like I deserve
#MentalHealth #Disability #tired #CP #Depression #Anxiety #validation #seenandheard

I know that a lot of us feel unwell most of the time. That probably wasn't a very well phrased title. But what I mean is... Do you get easily upset when you have a cold/flu/infection?

As an example, back in May I picked up a very nasty stomach bug (that my baby nephew ever-so-lovingly decided to share)... And for the entire day, I just kept breaking down into tears. For pretty much no reason. I don't know if it was frustration or if I'd just had enough... But I've noticed it happens every time I'm unwell.

I've had a cold for about a week now (several COVID tests have come back negative, despite me being certain this isn't an ordinary cold), and I just keep breaking down at the drop of a hat. My sister brought me a slice of my favourite cake from my favourite bakery and I burst into tears. The level of emotion is crazy. I don't like crying even when I'm feeling okay, so when I suddenly start sobbing, I get angry at myself and then usually end up crying more... I keep wondering if it's simply exhaustion? I'm immuno-compromised, so what other people would call a mild illness, is usually something that knocks me off my feet.

I'd just like to know if there's anyone else out there that's like this? And if you know of a way I could maybe minimise the tears? I feel so silly.

#chronicillnesswarrior #ChronicPain #POTS #EDS #NAFLD #LiverDisease #Diabetes #InterstitialCystitis #cold #Flu #BPD #Migraines #IBS #exhaustion #tired #emotional #unwell #immunosuppressed

These are the kind of weeks that just don't end. That exhaust the mind. The body. My heart feels heavy on my ribs. I sleep and cannot rest. I breathe and my lungs don't feel refreshed. I smile and answer questions. I force laughter, give all my energy to solving problems for others. I make mistakes and curse myself, my stomach in knots for all my errors, consumed by every blunder. The dust accumulates, the dishes pile, the laundry stacks. Head pounding. This just feels like sustainment, not life. #Pain #tired

I am entering a block of time where my depression has raised its head again. Always in such an inconvenient time. University stress is such a huge trigger point too. Get so caught up in the stress and anxiety of completing assessments, that my mental health just takes a deep dive down struggle street into Crap Town! Then i take sick days off work (my boss probably hates me now honestly) and i feel like im going to fail my classes because my mental state isnt in the right place to tune into that part of my brain to write essays and complete the important uni work.

Truthfully, music is the only thing that quiets my fuzzy mind. #Stress #Depression #anxeity #univeristy #Music #tired

I have to deal with my owned toddler, yes my son he is now 2 yrs old... from monday to sunday, every day for like 6 hours I have to be a parent! while my husband have to work, i have to do all the house chores, clean up, cooking, and takjng care of my toddler. Not to mention he always say no.. and I am just soo tired..

During the night my son still need me to accompany him while he asleep, until he wakes up.. otherwise he cant sleep.. I am stuck.

I hate my husband already because he cannot afford to pay a helper! i cannot have my free time at all, not even an hour of tranquility, every single day and night! and i am starting to hate everybody around me. I hate my kids.. I hate my family.. I hate my friends, i just cannot stand to have everyone around me, i push them away. I hate my self because I cannot control my emotions and not to have self regulation.

My head fills with a biq question mark, when this thing is gonna be over??
Do I really need help?? I have no idea what is wrong with me.

#Confusion #anger

Feeling very lost and discouraged in my chronic pain journey. I've tried all sorts of treatments and so far nothing has helped. Any suggestions? I'm in the process of getting my medical marijuana card and will try that next, but am very uncertain if that will help since CBD gave me acid reflux and digestive issues. Trying to be positive but feeling pessimistic about it. :(
Feeling lost #Need encouragement #all over pain #depressed #tired #medical marijuana #treatments #chronic pain

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Dear society,

Please stop making all of your information on “love” advice for romantic couples or just throuples. And please stop assuming that everyone has or wants a partner or feels romantic/sexual attraction to someone. It’s very annoying. I’m queerplatonic with all of my partners. Not romantic. More than platonic.

Oh yeah, and please stop assuming that our partners are either a boy or a girl. I have one future wife, two future nonbinary spouses, and two nonbinary partners (one of them is a nonbinary man).

Don’t tell me to choose one. Don’t ask me who I like more because I like all of them equally and that’s that. Don’t tell me my partners are “made up” because we’re in a system.

Sincerely,
A nonbinary (pangender) man who is tired of this amatonormativity and monogamy-centered society.

/vneg /srs

#feelingerased #LGBTQIA #polyamorous #polyaffectionate #erasure #DearSociety #ThisIsMe #tired #system

I always end up just trying to explain the situation or myself, and I feel like she always takes offense to it, or that I’m judging her when it’s not true. It’s so tiring and every time I end up sighing out of frustration because of the same thing, she feels like I’m judging her, when really I’m just so sick of these little things that make us agitated whenever I try to explain something.

It clearly doesn’t help that she has two kids who are more blunt and rude and it can stress her out, which also stresses me out a lot because I hate their bickering, especially hearing it often.

I really want to just move out of here already so that we all can just move on with our lives.

#Sibling #tired #Judgement