directmessaging

Okay, I LOVE that we finally have the direct messaging feature on here, but Gentlemen: this is not a dating app. I’m flattered by all the random texts from guys who seem to have no need to be here, otherwise, and are certain that they could make all my problems disappear if I married them, but let’s get real, ok?

Two broken people getting married, only means twice the brokenness to work through. Marriage does not equal an instant “Happily Ever After”. It takes work, years and years of work, and patience and ACTING in love, even when the feeling fades for a bit. This whole concept of “you complete me” is half-baked. It can certainly feel like it, at times, but when the going gets tough, so do relationships, of any sort.

For the record, I’m happily married to my husband of 10.5 years, with 3 crazy, but wonderful children. I *almost* have the life of my dreams. If it weren’t for my mental and physical illnesses, I think I probably would have the life of my dreams.

My depression is not circumstantial. It’s something I’ve dealt with since childhood, and have tried several different medications and combos with varying levels of success. I’ve tried several rounds of various therapies, as well. Throw in all the other diagnoses, and it’s really a miracle that anyone can put up with me, much less “complete” me.

My husband is amazing. He accepts me as I am, and always has. When we were dating, he held my head in his lap, so that I wouldn’t hit it on the cement driveway that I was laying on, during one of my “episodes”, after an encounter with my dad. He’s always tried so hard to be who I need him to be, and I adore him for it. However, it hasn’t been easy for either of us, and our marriage has definitely had its ups and downs. I’ve worked o my stuff, and he’s worked on his, and that’s the only way marriages can last. Everyone has to work on their own stuff, not expect someone else to magically make it all better.

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