dizzyspells

I'm still having horrible dizziness. My ears don't hurt, they're not popping, and I can hear just fine. So I don't suspect vestibular issues. I really don't know what could be causing it. It's scary. The whole room is spinning. It's like every 15 minutes. I'm anxious about going to the hospital urgent care cuz what if it's something bad? But my caregiver said we're going. My mom was really rude. I hung up on her. She thinks I'm doing it for attention cuz I don't want to go to urgent care. She wouldn't understand.

We're waiting for our friend who drives for a living to get off work. My caregiver said she'd pay for it.

#scared #dizzyspells

Today was hell.

I overdid it with the vestibular exercises and ended up getting really intense double vision and needing to lay down. My boyfriend helped me through it. He’s a cool cat. We talked about how shitty our days were today. To be honest, he’s one of the reasons I didn’t spray vomit everywhere last night.

Yeah, I’m hilarious. At least that’s my supportive employment case manager says. It’s more of a deadpan/dry sense of humor though. Personally, I prefer gallows humor considering everything I go through.

I overdid it but the next day later I feel amazing...so it was worth it? I like this feeling: energized and happy. My anxiety and compulsions aren’t too bad today. No pulling hair (yet) and no obsessive checking of my temperature and scanning for health symptoms.

But I did have a bunch of dizzy spells today. So I am taking it easy. I’m doing the best I can.

#vertigoattack #Menieres #Vertigo #dizzyspells #OCD