it has been a rough couple of months. I’m having to restructure my whole life and in my mind has been racing through scenarios, trying to rehearse every tumble and fall i might suffer and i am devastatingly aware of it.

I suffer from Generalized Anxiety Disorder and I try every day to not let it take over me. Being highly functional means that most people in my life have no clue of the extent of the battle I face everyday to try and live a somewhat “normal” life. Invariably when I do open up about it I get confronted with responses of the like of “You overthink too much about everything. Anxiety can be very easily controlled by your state of mind. Say fuck all every now and then” .

These comments hurt more than my anxiety. It makes it seem like it should be easy. Just switch it off! Just don’t think about it! Just let go! Most of all it makes me feel alone and misunderstood. And then i shut down. I isolate myself.

I wish I could just make people understand that all I need to hear back when I vent is: “it’s ok to have a bad day. it’s ok to talk about it. tomorrow will be a better day and i’ll still be here to talk about it if you need to.” #Anxiety #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #Depression #Openingup #Depression #alone #Isolation #donttellmetorelax