I have the urge to cut myself again. I haven’t been cutting myself for a year and 5 months now. I feel like my anxiety is bad and I can’t afford to see a psychiatrist. I have been off medication for 5 months as well. I wish I could seek help. I’m tired. My family thinks I’m recovered from my first suicide attempt 14 months ago. But I still get suicidal thoughts. I don’t want be perceived as a failure to my parents again.