empaths

Hi!

As I've mentioned in another post (to anyone following me), I'm not a big fan of labels, but there is one label that I am coming to terms with being and that is being an HSP. I'm slowly and very gently trying to embrace this side of me and try to let go of some of the shame I've had around being sensitive.

Does anyone else have periods where they just can't handle anyone else's vibes? I'm processing some really tough stuff from my past these days, feeling extra extra sensitive, like I just don't have any skin. I just went for a walk around my very lovely and quiet neighbourhood... Walking helps me think.

I noticed I was feeling like, oh my, I really can't speak to anyone right now, please don't let me bump into that neighbour who feels sorry for me because I live alone or that other neighbour who has an incessant need to know more than other people... because today I have no protection whatsoever.

And then for the first time, probably, I thought beyond my shame... ahaaaa, so it's not that I'm anti social or avoidant or insecure or have trust issues, or any of the other pathologising terms that people like to dish out, I'm an HSP and it's ok that I don't want anyone else's emotions or neurosis around me right now.

I can't stand the idea that HSPs are fragile little flowers. It makes me want to vomit. I do not see myself as that at all. I grew up taking care of my whole f-ing family in a dangerous household with no protection. A fragile flower would have wilted years ago.

I hope I can find a couple of you that can relate and perhaps some who also just can't be around other people for extended periods of time. I'm trying to normalise this. To help it be ok. I do like humanity. I promise:)

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