NarcissisticAbuse

We've all heard about Narcissistic Abuse and the lasting scars it leaves on a person's mind, heart, and body. But what's often less talked about is what it's like to heal when you can't remember - when the abuse has left you with fragmented memories, or none at all.

I want to share what it feels like to heal in the darkness. To move through recovery guided not by clear memories, but by feelings, intuition, and how the body responds when truth arises to the surface.

You might wonder: how does someone heal without memories? How do you know if something truly happened? For me, the answer has always been in the body. The emotional reactions. The way my nervous system trembles or shuts down. The tightness in my chest, the tears that come without words. My body has never forgotten - even when my mind has.

As a survivor, being in my body used to feel unbearable. I trained myself to go numb or disconnect because that was the only way to survive. I couldn't trust my memories because the people who hurt me worked so hard to erase them. Narcissists deny your reality so often that eventually, you start to doubt yourself, too. You learn not to trust what you see, hear, feel, or know deep down.

Without memories to light the way, I've had to walk through the pain blind. I've had to rely on feelings, sensations, and my intuition - little flashes of truth that don't always come with clear explanations.

I don't know if I'll ever get my memories back - and that's something I've learned to live with. Studies show that between 30% to 60% of childhood abuse survivors experience memory repression, and while some eventually regain pieces of those memories, not all do. If the memories return, I'll be ready. But for now, I'm learning to trust the truth my body already holds.

It wasn't easy. For a long time, I questioned everything. But after the first two years of healing, something began to shift. I realized I wasn't crazy. I wasn't making it up. My feelings were real. The grief, the betrayal, the heartache - they were all valid, even if I couldn't connect them to clear memories.

I had to create space for those feelings to exist, without needing a "why". I had to learn to sit with them, honor them, and trust that my body was telling me the truth, even when my mind stayed silent.

This is what it's like to heal in the dark. And if you're there too - if you're healing without a map - you're not alone. Your feelings are real. Your body knows. And sometimes, that's all the truth you need to take the next step.

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Yes, being in the narcissistic parent's crosshairs is quite painful. A relative told me that I had all the food and shelter that money could buy so I should be grateful and overlook the emotional and mental abuse. Just to silence me. And also asked why do I keep bringing up the past? Well, it's the past and present. I take abuse from noone, I said, not even family. I'm surrounded by gaslighters and flying monkeys, disguised as family. #NarcissisticAbuse #Anxiety #Depression #Anxiety #daughters

Hi, my name is lostgirlfound0_. I'm here because I’ve felt with all kind of abuse growing up from family, & My Mother worst of all. I’m here to learn, how to handle & keep moving forward.
#Narcissticmother #NarcissisticAbuse

#Anxiety #MentalHealth #ADHD #PanicAttacks #PTSDSupportAndRecovery #NarcissisticAbuse #AutismSpectrumDisorder #poet Am I not normal, with all that I have been through. I am what you fear and cleverly, I shield my thoughts and actions from the real world, afraid of being the truth. Speaking out under clouded false resources and trying to bridge back broken opportunities to survive. I am the truth that speaks back and I cannot hold my tongue, for I cannot keep these secrets of pain. It is not shame I feel, but I cannot understand how all that I have endured does not require your attention. Speaking the truth. Can you hear me now?

I would like to apologize for the length and tone of my first and most recent post in this group. I hadn't been on here in a long time and my wife had, very recently, left me. That being said,...

allow me to introduce you to my narcissistic wife. Throughout the length of our nearly 10-years of marriage together I'd noticed just how unappreciative she was when I or pretty much anybody else did anything nice for her. She had this queen-like mentality as if that is how things were supposed to be. It seems like the greater the sacrifice people made for her, the less she appreciated it. My parents bought us 3 houses during the course of our time together. Even after promising to take good care of them, she trashed them all. That is the most extreme level of generosity they were able to achieve for us and she showed little to no appreciation for it at all. Now, for whatever reason, when one of her family members would do something nice for her, like buying her a towel or something simple, she'd rave about how nice they were to have done that for her. Now, I know without any doubt that my dad was a narcissist or at least had those tendencies but, is my wife one as well or am I just seeing it wrong? I know I only gave one example of her mentality to you but I will say, she acted like she couldn't stand my family members. This includes members of my extended family as well. She described me in these ways: her 3rd child, dead weight, wimp; all the while demanding that I act perfectly for her. I have chronic illnesses that I am trying to overcome but it didn't matter to her at all. For a short period, I saw her try to help me with things I struggled with but after a certain point, she just stopped caring altogether. I'd say, for the last 3 years of our marriage, we were living separate lives under the same roof. We slept in separate rooms, even though many times I practically begged her to come back to our room, she'd quickly refuse stating she needed her sleep. The kids kept her from getting that so what is this? I mean I'm really confused. Was she gaslighting me just to mess with my head? I'm sorry guys. This is yet another long one but I'm looking for answers and I know questions can't get answered without good information. I'll stop this post at this point but if y'all need to know anything else more about her in order to be able to answer this question, please reach out to me and please #CheckInWithMe .#NarcissisticAbuse