#explode
i don't understand why i explode all the time?
My life is perfect... at least on paper. Relatively good health, good job blA bla bla. But at night when the dust settles and I closed yet another day in my “perfect” life, the demons show up. They constantly remind me of the things I need and should have. They tell me about the things I did wrong and why I’m alone. They also tell me, it’s dangerous to venture outside other than to go to my perfect car and drive to my perfect job. I’m so damm alone and I’m feeling so empty inside. I’ve been diagnosed with Felression, OCD (had to google that one) ADD and best of all PTSD. The solution? Here’s a pill or 2 or 10... the doc asking me “what do you think we should try” well dude your the F expert, you tell me lol
Anyways rant over for now! #Depression #middleage #explode #ADHD #Desperate
I just get out of control for no reason..
And I can go for hours...the rage is unreal and it breaks my heart im like this.
What ever this is? # mind gone.
I'm so exhausted afterwards so so tired.
I dont remember a thing I said or even done..
I ask myself why me. Why do I treat the person I love this way.
I want it to stop ✋.
I drink..most of the time that's when it happens. #boom off the charts! #explode
Sad . Lonely. No comfort. Push people away.
Don't know how to act.
Sucks really.