Familyproblem

Trapped. Burdened. Stagnant. All of the above. That's how I've been feeling since I've been visiting home. Does anyone relate to a similar feeling when they come back to a place that has so many awful memories of your worst mental-health-years? This year has been incredibly tough with many loses in relationships and future plans, and now I'm faced with an ailing parent. My mind and heart says I should stay and support my family, but I'm more afraid of my depression worsen and losing the strength to keep fighting suicide. I've made so much progress these past 2 months that I feel them wanting as I'm emptied by simple being in this environment. I feel so isolated and stuck that I don't know what to do. I am burdened by my family's expectation to stay and help, but I feel like I have to choose between my own health and the happiness of my family. I would have this conversation with my parents and family, but I have tried in the past and it never got through to them. Culturally, mental health isn't a real thing to them. And of ot was, I should put it aside for family because they are more important than how I feel. I want to do the right thing, but unfortunately, my heart is telling me the right thing is to leave and return to the home and family that I've established away from home.

I came on tonight really seeking support because I cant seem to find it in my own home. And as guilty as I feel, I cant deny it #Guilty #lost #Familyproblem #Depression