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    Completely lost ...... #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare #lost

    Since Covid / then Long covid ,severe anxiety &depression, PTSD from the fire at our previous home then all the mess with going into homless accommodation then temporary accommodation then eventually getting our home end of the year I was really feeling so positive and looking forward even though I was still dealing with chronic pain in my back and legs every day ,the issues I have from long covid and the ptsd I was finally excited and looking forward and coping.Even my pain and symptoms getting worse due to the slipped disc,the fact my hair is still falling out ,my scars from the skin cancer biopsies , I was still focusing on the new house ,decorating things making things the way I wanted and liked as I'm always crafty and like changing things with my own touches. My mood was much better and I was having less bad days then all this !now have been long term catheterised ,on crutches now for the foreseeable, my breathing issues are worse now ,I need help with everything basically unable to do anything myaelf unaided or supported.I have completely lost myself,loads my confidence in everyday possible, I don't enjoy the little things I used to love I feel I have no passion or drive feel like I am a completely different person ,I don't look forward now I'm taking days by days and just in this ongoing routine of being in pain on medication that I need but makes me constantly tired and drowsy. I feel like my children are suffering again after everything now having to see me like this and unable to do any of the things I used to do with them without assistance, walking aids,pain relief ,being on such strong medication that makes me constantly drowsy and unable to even get up sometimes .I feel so frustrated and agitated that my body is in such a state and constantly look at everything I've lost and loved about myself.Right now I am getting through the days but that's it I feel numb and guilty that there's people way worse off yet at the minute I can only see and feel how bad things are .having ongoing appointments non stop , worrying about the lymph node that is swollen now considering my history and what that may then cause or need to be done.I just feel absolutely exhausted I feel like a burden to those round me who are there for me and helping me as though I'm just a burden and a pest. I feel like I'm failing as a mum and my kids are suffering because of my health and issues.I just really can't seem to see anything other than this dark place rightnow 😭😭 I'm glad I have this app to vent my struggles and situations and I'm always very appreciative of the support and advice I get and could really be doing with some justnow.
    #MentalHealth #CheckInWithMe #Insomnia #Upallnight #SkinCancer #Endometriosis #COVID19 #longcovid #loveyourself #Bekind #Insomnia #Selfcare #PTSD #Anxiety #Depression #Parenting #GeneralParenting #AloneTogether #lost #ChronicIllness

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    Grief does not have a time limit #Grief

    I know to many it seems ridiculous, but the loss of my mom was major for me. Today makes 8 years since she passed on. In my head I replay the day from the moment I received the phone call at 1:45 am. I remember asking the doctor if he was joking. Grief comes in waves and this day every year it crashes.

    My mom, my mentor, and my one friends are the only ones who never make/made me feel worthless and like a screw up. My friend lives in another province and my mentor is going through some pretty serious things with her family.

    I miss my mom so much.

    My depression is reaching an all time low. It hurts. It physically hurts to be this low. On top of that add the grief add the worthlessness I feel because those around me do and say things to make me feel that way.

    My mom was quiet but strong. She was smart, kind, and caring. But she got run into the ground by selfishness and being told her opinion didn’t matter. She was an alcoholic. She wouldn’t have said that but it was her coping mechanism. When she was drunk she was mean. But I understand. I am sad I didn’t let her know enough how much I admired and respected her.

    #beingadaughter #remembering #lost

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    I’m so lost!

    I’m new here because I’m so lost and tangled in my own thoughts and feelings and I need help to see the light at the end of the tunnel! ):)

    #Anxiety #confused #lost #Depression

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    My boyfriend broke up with me…. and I feel shattered.

    It happened. And I never thought that this day would come and how hurt I will feel… he let me go because I am not independent on my own and couldn’t find a job. I tried SO hard to make it work with my art. But I am a struggling artist. He just Couldn’t take it anymore. He told me he was thinking about ending things with me for months, sleepness nights etc. I’m 28 and This was my first boyfriend and partner. We were together 4 years. I just moved back to my parents as I had nowhere else go. Unpacking mu things halfway through and I started breaking down again. I feel so broken. So useless and lost. I don’t know what to do, what to feel, where to go. I am so scared. I just want to cry and hide from the world. I feel like i am not going to make it. I feel beyond repair. I feel shattered. #breakup #heartbreak #Heartbroken #lost #hurt #useless #scared #Broken #Shattered

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    Feeling lost, alone, loneliness, alot even when having family around me.
    Not feeling happy in my relationship lately, could I start fresh ? What about the kids, the house the bills? Where would i go ? Would I even feel better? So many thoughts going through my head making things worse :(

    #Depression #lost

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    Hmmmmm

    This seems very weird to me. I dont know how i will get comfortable enough to accept help? #lost

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    January is 10 Days In!

    Hello Everyone.
    Welcome to another episode of #WhatOnEarthIsHappening ! 🤣

    My emotions nose dived today like as if I was flying in an air plane circus show. #emotional time periods are not the best times, but they can be #Valuable when we have #Anxiety . I started to #think about all of these things that I have experienced so far since my father had died in March 2022.

    When my #Dad passed away... I lost my favorite pain in the @$$. I was his favorite too. I #Love and #MISS my Dad so much. #Death is not an easy thing to #handle . But while I was #dealing with the #Lose of my Dad, I had them lost my job right after coming down with a terrible #illness .

    It was a nightmare for me how I #lost my #Job and my #daddy all in such a short time span. I haven't found another job since because I have not mentally been #prepared for #MentalHealth is something that needed to be worked on as I am still #grieving over my father and my job.

    So... Here I am... #RidingTheWaves that come in and out in my mind. Sometimes I just need to #RollWithIt and do what I need to do in the best way I can,.. even if it isn't my usual best. #Trying is better than #denying and #Procrastinating .

    I must start small.
    If I want a #Job ... I should try a small part time job somewhere. Maybe a retail job.. but.. even #Retail can be #stressful these days. It's getting #worse now that #AnxietyDisorder is getting stronger or more intense with me. But I will do my #best to #KeepWalking onward.

    Do you have any words of encouragement for me?

    #BipolarDisorder
    #AnxietyDisorder
    #PanicDisorder
    #Parentloss
    #Jobloss
    #PTSD
    #PMDD
    #strength

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    #lost

    Please someone answer me! I’m trying to much going on at one time 🙏🏼
    #CheckInWithMe

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    Any Help?

    I have #lost not just #weight... ALL things

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    Incarnation of Stupidity

    This is exactly how I feel lately. I feel like I know nothing. I don’t know how to eat, how to sleep, how to live. And I also don’t know how to write essays, how to speak with other people and how to discuss simple things. I don’t think the same way as people around me do. I am not smart. I know nothing. I am stupid. It is pretty hard to admit that.
    But so what. I can’t know everything, right? I can’t know even most of the existing knowledges, because there are so much to learn in planet Earth. I don’t have a wrong perspective, I have a different perspective. And it enriches the life around me (hopefully). This is the way of thinking, yes! I admit, that I know nothing and that knowledge sets me free.

    Apologies for all the nonsense, I just wanted to write down my weird thoughts somewhere else than my journal 😊 there’s a huge fight between rationality and absurdness happening inside me right now. That’s the 50 shades of depression. #Depression #lost #stupid #Weird

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