At least that’s how it feels.
I have a wonderful partner, I want to marry him some day, he is my world.
I have a best friend, she lives in another state, but we text and watch tv over FaceTime together all the time.
I have the best dog EVER, my baby boy, he keeps me motivated and positive.
And yet.. I’m so lonely. All the time.
When I wake up, when I’m spending time with my partner, when I’m walking the dog, til the moment I fall asleep.
I just feel so empty.
I’ve felt this way since I was small, probably from the constant emotional abuse and neglect, but I’m sick of it.
I’m sick of being comfortable with feeling like crap, all the time, because I was never allowed to be happy, I was told I was just being “MANIC,” and getting on HER nerves. I want to LIVE, and not care about what everyone is thinking and to let myself FEEL without worrying I’m going to bother or offend somebody.
I feel so guilty.
There are people who have it way worse but
It’s SO lonely.
#lonely #Guilty #Ramble #Vent