#MightyPoets

While exploring the reaches of my mind,
A small child did I find,
Scared, alone and crying.

“What’s wrong”, I said. “Why so sad?”
“I failed, made a mistake, and now I’m bad.”
Kneeling down, I spoke softly and said.

“LIttle one, you did not know
The mistakes we make are how we grow
They don’t make you bad or broken
They make you human.”

“The shame you feel, is not yours to own,
It’s not your fault it was a broken home,
You were always enough you see,
You just needed someone to tell you, like me.”

Then I turn and saw and older boy,
He smiled at me full of joy,
He said “Those were wise words coming from you.”
“It’s something you need to tell yourself too.”

Why the hands that once wrapped around my waist, ended up around my neck

And why?

If everything apparently happens for a reason

What was the reason for the the person whom I love, would do that to me?

Is it possible to love someone, yet want to hurt them so badly?

“Think of how an accusation like that would ruin his life think about the choice you are making”.
But the choice was never mine.

And why
Why is it, that I love this person?
With all of my heart

The same heart he once tried to stop from beating.

When not with hands, with words and venom.

Spiting vitriol as easily as taking your next breath.

So unworthy and unlovable, the slurs engraved in my mind.

And you never admit it, to doing any of it

You didn’t just hurt me, or lied to me, or called me names.

You didn’t just inflict physical harm on me

You broke a really deep part of me inside

A part I have only now just started to get back.

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I never thought I would find myself completely and utterly consumed by another until you.

At first you don’t even know it’s happening, and it all started with a hello.
Then your mind starts to concentrate on that one person, and nothing else. Whenever you speak to them, those butterflies and smile appear and any worries disappear.

And before I even knew it, I started to fall in love with you.

And every time I say that I love you
I’m trying to say so much more than them three little words.

I’m trying to say that I adore you and you mean more to me than anyone else in the world.

I’m trying to say that without you I feel like a part of me isn’t complete.

I’m trying to say that through every small crack and flaw, it makes me infatuated even more.

I’m trying to say that through thick and thin, the way I feel for you will never cease, it only makes my feelings for you stronger.

Oscar Wilde once said that it takes a great deal of courage to see the world in all its tainted glory and to still love it

And If someone was to ask me what made me happiest in the world, it’s you.

Tap tap tapping on the glass
Watching while others pass
Stuck
Imprisoned
Ignored

For this prison that holds me stretches to the sky
Just listening as time passes me by
Prints of my hand streaking on it's coating
Longing for emotional human interaction
Although it never seems like floating
Hunting for passion

This metaphorical prison I created myself
A defense mechanism gone terribly wrong
And now all I do is long
For these four walls to fall

Maybe one day I will achieve face to face vulnerability
But for the time being my words will tell the tale

In the Shadow of Choices

In the quiet chaos of an hour,
I wander roads, overgrown with doubt,
An adult now, yet still a child at heart,
The map of life sprawled out, all routes
Obscured by fog—where does my spirit start?

Each step feels heavy, laden with regret,
The weight of unseen failures in my chest,
While dreams dissolve like whispers in the night,
And I chase shadows of what could have been—
A flicker here, then gone—a ghostly flight.

Conversations with mirrors yield no reply,
Reflections mocking what I cannot see;
Is this the self I’ve been meant to be?
Or just a fractured echo of lost glory?
Adulthood feels like a bittersweet lie.

I could carve paths into the silence wide,
Yet find myself stumbling through tangled fears—
How to grasp the reins when chaos reigns?
With every choice a drop in the abyss;
Life lays bare its heartache through silent tears.

Oh time! Why do you slip between my hands?
Like grains of sand that vanish in despair;
I'm drowning in uncertainty's fierce tide—
Glimmers of hope beckon from afar.
Yet every promise turns to wishful air.

Amidst this twisted maze where doubts reside,
I keep searching for signs along the way—
For whispers that might guide me toward light,
That spark within to blaze and break this night;
To claim my own in this uncharted fray. #CheckInWithMe