10
....
You can’t do this!! You are weak.
My grip loosens

9
....

Freak show here. Come get your tickets.
Tears start rolling down

8

No one cares about you. You are worthless, a failure, a fraud, a loner, a mess.

7

Darkness
I am getting tired, can’t keep holding on,
all i see is the black hole below me
All i hear are voices of those above me - laughing, all happy and energised.

6, 5, 4

Always fine, always okay, always on show, I can feel the fight in me giving up. Holding out for that helping hand, finding no one, continue falling, failing

Helpless

3

I shout, i scream, hold on to the last part of me
I watch the parts of me that make me me

2

1

can’t let them win
But I’m just so tired
So tired of this life
So tired to fight
I just want to let go
Close my eyes
Take a deep breath #hopeless #desperateforhelp #exhausted #functionalyetnotfunctional