What do you do when you're tired of being poked and examined? I just want to cancel all appointments and say enough. The amount of appointments and tests coming up is overwhelming.

I'm worried they'll gaslight me with this, "well tests are normal...are you seeing a therapist?"

Okay dude my tests may be normal but my depression isn't causing my blood pressure to drop or the gastro bleeding...

I need a break from life.

The little happiness I've had in my 38 years is not even a half percent worth the physical, emotional pain and heartache I've experienced and it just keeps piling up. This isn't a gift, it's hell.

( please no religious replies. Thanks.)

#CRPS #POTS #Stroke #MDD #Gaslightling #exhaustion #givingup