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My name is Sasha and six years ago this month, I was diagnosed with severe depression. The past six years have been ugly, hard, lethargic, and quite literally depressing. College for anyone comes with challenges and obstacles, but trying to overcome those challenges while summoning the will to live broke me down. I failed out of college, nearly committed suicide multiple times, and ended up in a mental hospital for a few days. But despite the ugly falls I had, I pushed myself back up each time. I took a year off of school and found motivation to finish. I sought help through multiple outlets every time I wanted to hurt myself. My time in the mental hospital ended up being the most important and beautiful days of my life.
My workout regime over the past six years has been little to nonexistent. How on earth could I find the energy to run or lift weights when I couldn’t find the energy to get out of bed? I am guilty of sleeping over 20 hours a day, the thought of working out for even five minutes drained all the mental energy I had.
But today, I finished a Spartan Sprint in one hour, 13 minutes. I successfully completed 16 of 20 obstacles and finished 37th of 121 in my age group. I worked equally as hard to overcome my own mental obstacles as I did to overcome the physical obstacles of the race.
The past six years of my life have been hell and there is no guarantee that the next six will be different, but I overcame a huge obstacle today. I threw up the biggest middle finger to depression today and it is all through the grace of God. All glory be to Him above for getting me through this race. I am so overwhelmed with emotion and gratitude that through His help, I motivated myself to train for and finish this race.
Glory be to God and thank you to my amazing friends for helping me get through this and standing by my side through it all. I could not have done this without you, nor would I have wanted to. #Ididit #GlorytoGod #Depression #MentalHealthAwareness
