For me i use a red lacka band on my wrist, play piano, and paint with red paint. I alsp listen to sad music and look for other ways to harm myself unfortunately like alcohol or medication. So hard you just want a #release . Past #Addiction can creep up and its so hard in those moments. Nothing can compare to the actual act. You can be so #tempted to put your self in #harmsway and want to participate in #risktaking behaviour.