My Dad used to say he was “collecting smiles” Being an open hearted and kind person isn’t always as easy it sounds! But a smile goes such a long way!

My Dad used to say he was “collecting smiles” Being an open hearted and kind person isn’t always as easy it sounds! But a smile goes such a long way!
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I'm here per my therapist's encouragement to try to forge healthy connections with people and be part of a support system with others that also struggle with mental health. #Anxiety #Depression #Addiction
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Hi, my name is BigB1595. I want to get away from my drug addiction. I went to prison for two years for drugs, but now after 3 clean I’ve relapsed and I can seem to turn away from it.”, I just keep doing it.
Trying to work doesn't work for me?
I can't sleep thinking about this part time job I took I shouldn't have even bothered to look for a job and start it! I was very specific about the hours days I could work and on my first week not in training she scheduled me for during my regularly scheduled counseling a standing appt that I explained last week that I have! My new boss screams and cusses freaking out if something doesn't go her way? I always try to work because people society treats you differently if you don't or can't hold a steady job! I can't sleep because I am thinking about the anxiety and stress it causes me to think about having to go in and deal with people all day in a store and I didn't know that I was going to be expected to make sellibg my major job? I thought people would come in pick out what they want and I would ring it up? No I am supposed to aggressively sell to each and every customer that isn't a rewards member?! Ugh! I just am not gonna be able to do this job and I won't be able to sleep worrying about it?! I'm not on disability yet but am trying just starting to get shit together to file!? Anyway I won't be able to do this job that is for sure I am over 50 and never held down a job? My anxiety panic attacks self esteem emotions being everywhere just doesn't go good with reg employment!? #BPD , #Bipolar , #opiate addiction,#domestic violence, #CPTSD , #Depression #Anxiety #panic attacks I am embarrassed and ashamed and poir and still won't be able to do this job so I am going to have to say so but I prolly won't I will probably just call in so many times she fires me!? This sucks! I always feel good looking for a job then getting it then the problems show and I bounce. I can't listen to her screaming and tripping out that triggers my shit!? When will I just accept that I can't do it? Man this really does suck!!!