Hello Mighty friends! It's been quite a while since I've posted or interacted here with you all.

Not a woe is me.. but I know this community is amazing and that my presence wasn't missed because of all the other wonderful people here to give support and listen.

I've been pondering lately.. about what I want to do with my life. I'm almost 35! crazy to say that at this age. But when you live in survival mode and in a #CPTSD #PTSD fog from traumatic events for years.. that's what happens I guess.

My heart is so passionate about helping others. That's really vague I know. More like with the deep inner pain.. the kind that complex trauma give you, ya know? Where the inner turmoil of your whole being makes every day just painful. Maybe my passion comes from hating this feeling and wanting to help others work through or give them that gentle loving reminder that they're more than how they feel.

IDK yet. My husband had an idea of working with kids. I really want to be in the thick of it. It could be working with kids in group homes. People coming out of being trafficked(I'm a #traffickingSurvivor ) idk.

I also am pretty sure I'm not cut out for years and years of college.. maybe I'm selling myself "short" but I don't think I need to do that in order to be helpful. I just want to love on people. Practical help.

Right now though.. I get SOOO invested. Overly so, where I start finding it hard to hold my own personal boundaries so that my desire to help other people doesn't start impacting my own mental health.

I love to share my own stories from my experiences and the things i've learned from life, hardships, therapy and different workshops I've attended.

I truly believe that as people it's important to share what we know.. because if it weren't for others sharing I may not have be where I'm at now with my own walk/healing.

So I guess in a way, do you have any ideas? I literally had zero direction given to me as a child. I'm like a fish out of water when it comes to things like this.

#Justthinking #Survivor #helpingheart #Depression #Anxiety #DID