IAmSober

This is a big deal for me.
I started self harming when I was 14 years old, my home life wasn't a safe or comfortable place for me, I was finding it hard to concentrate at school and it was then when I realised there was something wrong with me because I couldn't sustain a happy mood for long.
Self harm did a lot of different things for me, it made me feel numb when I needed it, it was a method of self punishment, it was a distraction.
Self harm became an addiction to me, I could barely go days without hurting myself.
When I moved out of my abusers house and into my Fathers, I thought my addiction was finally over. But that didn't last long. It lasted 9 whole months before I finally gave back in.
Since then I've tried so hard to stop, and it's been a struggle.
I've finally made it to the longest I've ever been clean from my addiction, and I intend to stay clean this time. I refuse to give back in.
I'm getting a custom designed tattoo to commemorate this important occasion in two weeks, I'll post a photo of it once it's healed.
I'm making 2020 my year. 💪💪 #Selfharm #Recovery #MentalHealth #selfharmsober #SelfharmRecover #IAmSober

I have never been able to get clean from self harm. I started cutting at 12/13 and now I’m 16 and the longest I’ve ever been clean was 11 weeks / 77 days (earlier this year). I ended up breaking it in May due to obsessing over how many days it had been and just not knowing if I was going to relapse or not. Today I achieved 49 days clean with the help of the app I Am Sober. It’s been a lifesaver in helping me try and ditch the self harm.

My original goal was 100 days but when I look that far into the future I don’t see myself making it, I don’t even see myself making or next week clean. I Am Sober lets me break it up into tiny steps and watching the seconds go by since I last cut is almost therapeutic. If I want to self harm or anything I can just go and watch the seconds go by in real time. It’s amazing, I’m literally getting clean doing nothing but staring at this clock a few minutes a day and making a pledge and review.

I hope this can help someone in need, the app isn’t just for self harm, there are a variety of addictions and you can even type your own. There are multiple quotes, pledges and chances to review your day.

I know I’ll go back to self harm, but until then #IAmSober

#Depression #Anxiety #Selfharm #Addiction