No one else can tell me what my body feels it wants to eat
#AnorexiaNervosa #intuitiveeating #EatingDisorders
The other day i went for a walk, later, after dinner i felt like i wanted a little something sweet, so i had a bowl of icecream.
While i was enjoying my icecream, i was revelling in the fact that i can listen to my body and feed it intuitively what it needs.
I remembered times in the past, when i was living with my parents, that i would eat icecream after dinner, and mum would give me a look and sometimes say 'you dont really need that, do you?'.
WHO ARE YOU TO TELL ME WHAT MY BODY NEEDS?
NO WONDER I DEVELOPED RESTRICTION.
I know my own body and what it needs.
Oh, and there was also the times (pre-anorexia) that mum would comment on my body and that i was too unfit and fat.
Looking back, this makes me so angry now. I know that mum was just trying to look after me and my health, but i can see now looking back that she has lived with a very well hidden, highly controlled eating disorder for at least my whole life. It makes me sad, but thats how she has chosen to live and to not address it.