× " I Fear This Big Issue So Much That This Ended My Marriage... Will I Ever Be Able To Enjoy " Intimacy " Ever Again Idk Probably Not... I Feel So Uncomfortable Writing About This TBH... But It Is An Issue Within Me.. That I Can't Stand Being Touched... This Is Probably Why I Won't Try Dating... Among My Other Issue's And Disabilities... Idk If I Will Overcome This Issue.. " × #Thought 's#isthisnormal ?
I am somebody yet I'm nobody at all. I want and strive to do so much but my body and mind do not get along very well. Some days I am sunshine, other days I am a tsunami. All of these days I feel pain. I can make everyone laugh and nobody knows how much it hurts. This mirror is a liar. Anxiety came back after I told her to stay gone the last time. I'm pretty sure she moved back in long term. I hate her. I want to check myself in somewhere....compared to this it would feel like vacation. But I don't deserve vacation. I need to go back to work. I finished school and I can't push anymore so everything has stopped. I feel pain. Everywhere but everyone needs me to keep going. It hurts. I wake up. It hurts. I get my kids to school. It hurts. I have so many things to do....I am laying down. I forgot to breath the past few minutes. Stop. Count to 30 and breath.....I have like 12 loads of laundry, we are out of milk, school just called daughter ran out of insulin, gotta run to school now....was that 30 seconds? Because I need to start over I forgot to breath again. Did I turn off the flat iron? I hope so because I didn't even do my hair. No time. I AM EXHAUSTED! I AM IN PAIN! HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BE NORMAL!!!!!!#AmIcrazy #isthisnormal #thisiseveryday #
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