justtryingtosurvive

I’ve been with the same Psychiatrist for 10 years or a little more. I feel like I’ve been helped at times and others not so much, mainly because I questioned some of the meds she suggested and decided I was not willing to try them. I’m scared of course of changing because I’m familiar with her, but I feel our dr/patient relationship has become too familiar and she just prescribes whatever and leaves too much of the decision on my end. I want a Dr that tells me confidently what I need and should try and be more firm in their suggestions. I know I ultimately have to decide what I want in meds., I just would
Like a little more assurance from them instead of being non chalant about the meds, And just throwing them out there. We do not have much psychiatric help here in my town and there’s pretty much a waiting list. So not sure when I’ll get into the new Dr, but I’m still keeping the standing appt with my current psychiatrist in case I’ll have to wait a few weeks to see the new one. Anyone relate? I hope I’m making the right decision. #changingpsychiatrist #newdoctor #feelstuck #ifeellikeapillhead #ijustwanttofeelbetter #justtryingtosurvive #needmotivation #needtoloseweight #carb &sugaraddction
#Depression &anxiety #obsessivethoughtpattern
#BingeEating #foodcomforts
#hidingout

Typically my anxiety comes and goes, but never stays 24/7. Every single day this week I don’t remember it leaving… I’m stuck with this pit in my throat and stomach. I have no appetite, I have no ambition, I’m exhausted. It really feels like some is slowly suffocating my throat, only leaving little pockets of air that I grasp on to, just trying to survive.. It makes breathing impossible. It makes thinking straight even more difficult and my emotions are everywhere. My coping skills are worthless. I need a break I tell myself, but the breaks don’t work. Music doesn’t work. I’m stuck on this anxiety ride just waiting for the battery to run out, only it’s plugged in. No one chooses to feel this way. No one chooses to let their anxiety consume every bone in their body. So what relieves it? Medication? That feels like just a temporary fix, but the underlying reasons why it started in the first place are still there buried deep under layers of trauma that my brain has protected me from really feeling. There’s not enough time in a session to unpack what haunts my soul. So when will it end? When will I stop being triggered. Your answer is as good as mine. #Anxiety #justtryingtosurvive #coping #cantbreathe #Trauma #MentalHealth