KlonopinSucks

This is benzo belly, one of the worst symptoms of Klonopin withdrawal. I’m totally putting myself out there in hopes of helping someone, somewhere. After much study I have learned that Benzos work on gabba receptors and our guts are lined with them. Benzo belly- bloating, extension, pain, indigestion, constipation or loose stools etc- is caused by inflammation of said gabba receptors in our guts. In essence, the receptors are revolting, they want their gabba fix. It is extremely embarrassing and it has destroyed the little self esteem I had. Yes, it is as uncomfortable as it looks and no, I am not five months pregnant. Withdrawals are like being punished for trying to recover. It’s maddening. Thank goodness I found out what was going on. I was convinced I had endometriosis or ovarian cancer. When will I find relief? I am a 140 woman with an abnormally painful, bulbous belly, and it sucks.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #CPTSD #Anxiety #KlonopinSucks #TreatmentresistantDepression #BodyDysmorphicDisorder #withdrawals

I’ve lost two beautiful betta fish in two days. I found a dead monarch butterfly in my butterfly garden. Seemingly small losses, but the are looming heavy over me. See, they are more than fish and a butterfly. They are a representation of former losses, failures and reinforcement that I don’t deserve good things and that I lose what I love. I have catastrophized these losses into an irrational fear that I am going to lose my rescue pup- an adorable, well socialized, obedient, funny lap dog purebred Red nose American Pitbull Terrior, who is on his way to becoming a Service Dog.
I know these plaguing thought are irrational, I am just historically acquainted with loss. Thank you for listening ❤️ #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #CPTSD #Anxiety #TreatmentresistantDepression #Selfharm #Catastrophization #KlonopinSucks