Refinding the lost self
My relationship has been strained for the last year. I have severe anxiety, depression, and OCD. This year has exacerbated all of it. My boyfriend (of 6 years) has tried to be supportive. He's tried kindness, tough love, even anger to try to snap me out of it. Today, he told me he doesn't recognize me anymore. He reminded me how I used to be so full of life, fearless. He says now I do three things: work, sleep, and slump in a chair playing on my phone. He isn't wrong. I know I'm mired under a pile of intrusive thoughts and feelings, but I don't know how to get myself out. I'm on antidepressants. I was in therapy until about a month ago when my therapist went off the deep end in a curse word filled tirade about liberals and trump (during my session). I'm looking for a new therapist, but it's difficult to find one. I just don't know what to do. I want more than anything to go back to that carefree, fearless girl I once was, but I don't know how to even begin. Any advice? Anything that's worked for you? I'm desperate. I'm scared of losing the love of my life just like I've lost myself. #Anxiety #Depression #lostself #LosingMyself #buriedunderthoughts #fearful