I realize after hitting POST on my last thought, that I really wasn't missing 2017 me so much as struggling with my identity now as 2019 ends.

I am completely different than I was in 2017. I found a purpose in 2017 to be that wild, manic pixie dream girl type that has sex liberally and disappears the next morning while teaching her partner a deal about the spontaneity of life. Now, I lack purpose and identity, not allowing myself to take on anything of those around me for fear of appropriating something that is simply just not mine.

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