missingmydad

I’m leaving for Virginia this Friday. My cousin is donating her kidney to her father (my uncle). I just lost my Dad in January of this year to kidney failure. While I am overjoyed that she is going to be able to save her Dad, the question I keep having is why couldn’t I save mine. I wanted to!! I called the transplant team and everything to start the process, but my Dad just never did anything about it. I know in my heart (even though we didn’t have testing) that he and I were a perfect match for each other. He was my best friend, my confidant, my everything. I’m having a hard time with this whole thing. Any wonderful words of wisdom?? #Cantsleep #Depression #missingmydad #wordsofwisdom

How can I smile be happy n act like it’s a great holiday ! When I all I see is images of my dad struggling to stay n make each breath not his last. I miss my dad so much I don’t even wanna get out of bed ##missingmydad