Cantsleep

i think ill start off saying i'm newly diagnosed autistic with severe auditory sensitivity.
I live in a non-family apartment building. Our lease states no more than 2 adults can live in per unit 🇨🇦. About 6 months ago a family of 5 (3 adults, 2 minors) moved above me. My landlord is aware of my condition, and continuously makes excuses for the noise above me. While telling me to "just get used to it", verbatim. Other teants are aware and can hear it aswell, i mean, who could sleep through a 6 year old girl jumping off furniture onto noncarpetted areas at 6:30am. But theres also the stomping. I asked them to soften it up for its triggering me, they took it as a challenge. Laughing at me "ya, no" and proceeded to get louder. I am told "they are allowed to live". I guess they are, i am not.
My entire building backs them up, while always brushing off how much this truly affects me. No one cares to know. Because im the freak, and upstairs is not.
Im looking for things so i can stop spiraling and possibly live without thinking of self exiting. Like headphones will be a recommendation, but what brands? And are they comfortable to sleep with, im a side sleeper. As i will be wearing these 24/7. And then any other recommendations?
I would love to move out, but this is literally the only place i can afford, but the streets are starting to look good.
Im sorry if this didnt make sense. Im just so tired (being jarred awake 186 times straight), among my stressed mental health.
Im sorry. Im just stressed and feeling extra lonely.
Thank you. #AutismSpectrumDisorder #Cantsleep

I have trouble falling asleep and staying asleep
Right now feels extra hard with so much on my mind
Thinking about what can I do to heal my relationship
Help myself feel at ease
Thinking about my dad moving out
If I’ll be able to pay my rent on time
Should i cancel my sleep over
Sometimes I’m unsure if my partner hates me
I know that’s not true but it comes in and or if my brain
Will my mom ever try to make peace with my partner
I kind of just want to cry
Half way feeling a panic attack coming on
Kind of want to call my mom and cry
But I don’t want her to worry or think more negatively about my partner
Kind of want to hide in a cave for a few months
People of Toronto please vote
The house crisis is horrible and wish we got paid a livable wage
Life just feels like too much
#Cantsleep #Depression #stuck

#Cantsleep

I noticed every time I have something that I KNOW I have to be awake early for the next day, that’s not the usual, I can’t sleep. If I try to force myself to sleep I always wake up like I didn’t take a breath in and have to force myself to breathe, which then my heart is racing & im nauseous. Now my anxiety is high and I can’t go back to sleep. This also happens if I’m overly tired. I don’t get it. I just wanna sleep without waking up in panic and afraid to go back to sleep. Idk what’s even happening. And google scares me more 😭

What’s worse than insomnia? Painsomnia.

Anyone else up and want to talk? Send me a message , let’s be friends :)

) #Insomnia #Painsomnia #Cantsleep #Gastroparesis #EhlersDanlosSyndrome #IntestinalPseudoOnbstruction #PulmonaryHypertension

I would love to read a book that features a fictional character who has fibromyalgia. Please comment if you have read any good fictional books whose characters have fibromyalgia.

I would also love to see a recommendation for a motivational book for people with chronic pain/chronic illnesses. If it's a book specifically about fibromyalgia, please make sure that the author has fibromyalgia themselves before recommending. I know that that sounds nitpicky, but I have heard enough BS for a lifetime 😅

For those of you who don’t know, I have a really hard time sleeping. I don’t know weather to laugh 😂 cry 😭 or both lol