Watching Cancer
My name is Nai, but most call me Nana. My mother's name was Nilda and she was diagnosed with neuroendocrine carcinoma. I had the pleasure not only being her daugther but her caretaker/home attendant as well. Around July 2009, she was raising a set of twins she adopted because she knew what its like not to have a mom and opened her doors to them. They were just shy of their 8th birthday when she received the news. She had undergone various surgeries, chemotherapies, prolonging her life for them. Everyday I saw cancer. She had good days and bad but she never let it defy her strength and faith in God and Jesus. When I say everyday I mean it. I was in a long-term relationship now married. My Father, The Twins, My Mother, and My Husband all have various medical issues which led me to become a medical assistant. I always wanted to know everything with My mom. Her scans, xray's, bloodwork, medicine, doctors etc., I knew everything. She fought for 8 years. My Husband opened our home fir hospice for mom and joined in the difficult journey ahead. He never left my side. My mom loved him dearly and everything he did was for her.
I know what any child of a parent dealing and battling this disease is going through or about too. My advice is never give up on yourself for your loved one. They will have moments of mood swings, take a breathe, is not you trust me. When Mom passed in early 2017, my interpretation of her passing is and I quote myself...
" When you teach your child to walk, their will be times where they will fall but eventually it is so they can be independent to one day to walk on their own. I do not grieve because I've done all I could, all 35 years of my life I dedicated to her and not regret one day. She now has finally let go so I can walk independently on my own. She didn't die alone, her first born, my older sister was there to send her off so she can meet and greet the Mother she never knew but finally embrace as she entered Heaven."
I hope I can be of some help to anyone.
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