I didn’t know how to answer. I have had 3 immediate family members and my 2nd Dad(father-in-law) pass in the last 5 years. Im still grieving the first death which is a younger brother. He’s is about 18 months younger. We are very close. He is in everyone of my dreams. Aggravating me as usual. If he didn’t it wouldn’t be him , but we love each other very much. I can’t seem to progress and move to the next step. Im also dealing with autoimmune issues, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Fibromyalgia chronic pain and fatigue, hyperthyroidism, diabetes, nodules on my forehead but not quite a Klingon. It’s an inside joke , I get chronic pancreatitis, Every joint hurts something weird is going on with my eyes upperlids lumbar spondylitis etc…. I just want someone to understand. This happened at birth born without right ear and can’t hear. Also had extra vertebrae in my lower spine. And still all I want is someone to listen or hear me vent my husband is sweet an does try but he doesn’t understand only those whom have experience them truly get it. My mom understood but I lost her in August 2020. Lost my dad July 4th 2021. He missed mom. My father in law passed on March 15,2022. I don’t hate death my family had some health issues, but their are at peace. Im a spiritual person. I believe in heaven. I miss them so much. Thank you 🙏🏼 for listening. If you need to vent I would be happy to listen #grieving #struggling #neverendingillnesses #SmilingDepression my brother who passed he was 44 is first then me then my youngest brother He was my best friend!💔