newtothegroup

Hey everyone, I have been on here for awhile, but never posted anything. I read other people’s posts when I’m really struggling. It’s like going somewhere where everyone “gets it.” It’s been so comforting to me. I have only officially been diagnosed with #Anxiety , but just started seeing a counselor that specializes in #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder , and man is everything clicking. I’m 31 years old and I think “if only I would have known that this “thing” that constantly haunts me has a name and there are things I can do to fight it.” Something else that is blowing my mind is this: it always seemed to me that everyone I knew had the same mental battles that I have, but they could cope and I couldn’t. I was weak and fragile. I’m realizing now that the battle I am fighting is not even on the same spectrum as the people who think I should just “stay positive” or “think about something else.” I am the strong one. I am doing all the things they are doing-working, taking care of my kids, housework, etc...All while dragging a huge weight behind me. All while having a pack of wolves nipping at my heels. All while being sucked into a black hole. I am the strong one. #Scrupulosity #ContaminationOCD #skinpicking #ExposureAndResponsePrevention