I see friends and people I work with on Facebook, going out and having a great time. They stopped inviting me to events..they say I’m a flake.
They don’t understand that I want to go. I want to go out and have a social life. I want to have fun. But it’s so hard.
They don’t understand that just because I want to be out and about, it doesn’t mean my body will allow it.
I’m excited to hang out with people until the day comes. My anxiety doesn’t want me to take a shower, my anxiety doesn’t want me to brush my teeth, my doesn’t want me to dry my hair and put on makeup...
I flake. I’m just too depressed to even make up an excuse. My body starts to ache and I cry myself to sleep.
When I wake up I check on Facebook and Instagram....they had a great time..without me..again. The feelings of loneliness creep up on me.
All I want is to be invited again. Even though I don’t make it out much, just them inviting me is enough. Enough to prevent some of the bad thoughts.
I wish people could understand.

#betrayal #Depression #Anxiety #NoSocialLife #Flake #Loneliness #imsorry