I am a lucid dream and it’s uncontrollable. I don’t sleep well #ADHD and when I have these “dream within a dream” they are so challenging and emotional. I don’t get it.

I dream, initially, that my Mom wanted nothing to do with me—I assume a way for my brain to deal with her death is feeling abandoned. (I feel like she gave up but I know she didn’t. There is evidence for both beliefs.)

I spent 18-24months after my Mother died having this progressive dream of her having returned but hardly interacting with me. I even had to watch her die again but did get to say goodbye. Doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt. This was 2012-13. She died December 2011.

All I wanna do is cry, like ugly, snot nose gross cry but I have responsibilities that currently prevent me from just sitting with my emotions and body. #AnxietyAttack #Dream #reparenting

Being a parent who has lost their parent who has children too make life so emotionally challenging. Somehow I do it. #ADHD ‘s object permanence issues, I think, allow me to ignore it since I’ve changed location and association.

I’m not sure I even understand what I’m saying.