Having a very difficult time this holiday season getting through difficult #fibroflares as well as a horrible unknown dibbilitating unexplained pain in my right side. It's hard to eat and drink and breath let alone function normally and be the #perfectperson this holiday the perfect girlfriend, aunt, niece, daughter, sister, and make it through the holiday. I've already #blackedout once from pure #Pain and #ChronicFatigue and my boyfriend found me on the floor. I'm trying to push myself and be normal when it's not but I don't want to be judged. Or let anyone down or disappoint or upset anyone because I know I will seeing as his mother and my mother are very difficult to please. I'm just so wholeheartedly exhausted and I want to cry but I'm trying to hard to keep A smile on my face for everyone else's holiday #smilingontheoutsidecryingontheinside