I was diagnosed by my old family Doctor for depression and anxiety.

I stopped taking my meds, cold turkey because my prescription wasn't being refilled.

I'd say 75% of the time I function ok, but the other percentage I'm a freaking wreck. I'm angry and stand offish, I don't know how to express my feelings, I can get over stimulated fast and I've actually screamed out in frustration, like so loud my throat hurt for the rest of the day. I have dreams of self harm Ina weekly basis.

I try to tell people but they don't think I need the pills. They "numb" me so I don't feel anything and life is meant to be hard...yadda yadda yadda. I don't doubt that life is hard, but f*** I'm pill shamed for mental health pills but pills I take to stop a blood clot from forming is ok. I'm going to go on strike and not take my other meds. If my brain can't get help then neither can the rest of my body.

Do I have a mental health problem, or am I just making this stuff up ? I genuinely have no idea anymore.

Excuse me while I go self destruct a bit 😒

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