Unhealed Trauma
Unhealed traumas
It’s like you bandage your wound
But carry the scars forever
Wounds might heal
Pain stays however
You repress your thoughts.
But hear the voices in your head
Wailing in agony
Every night as you lay in your bed
You could be dancing with the ghosts
The ones who inflicted bruises on your bones
Unhealed traumas
It’s like screaming with no words
That one busy day or a lonely night
Stands there; everything you tried to hide
Knocking at your door
Weeping on the floor
You wanted to smile, but you couldn’t
No more.
It manifests in loud laughter
Or silent cries
When you’re unable to say something
Despite having chaos in your mind
It’s the little moments where you zone out
Or lose track of time
When you cannot remember
What yesterday felt like
I don’t need them
I don’t need you
It’s another way the trauma
Lives in you
Unhealed traumas
Doesn’t come out in big waves
But the tears that you shed
Over the things
That doesn’t really make sense
Or the times you said
You were perfectly fine
But felt empty inside
So when you forgive yourself
for the sins
Then why the mirror
Reflects your guilt?
-wordsbyroha