Extreme extreme abuse last night, so tired, so after writing out by hand a whole lot of BS poetry at 4 in the morning and hoping to make it to enrollment and a poetry reading, dad calls from emerg, so I go see my elderly, then am harrassed by an Indian female infant, whom my husband yelled about on the phone while there was a funeral in the elderly home, then after making sure my dad and his Shoeless wet socks were ok, I set home in a cab, came home and watched Irony of Fate about a drunk Russian man who gets lost and accidentally cheats and is a Soviet tradition for New Years, and call my husband who comes home screaming at me, and takes my phone while I am entirely weak, from eating pasta, which is almost all I eat, ever, with thai sauce, so kid got violent too, then after being threatened to be locked in again, I tried to alleviate by getting naked and offering my services, when it was only him I called all day anyways, so he and kid screamed and I screamed, then I go upstairs, turn him down, sleep and attempt to re-enter my room at which time he screams, and will not leave my room, and my sadness has no bounds, so he puts on loudest washing machine on the planet in the bathroom and elderly again calls with a problem so that got his screaming ass out of the room and I was able to sleep, however heart extremely broken, became someone I have never been, feel extremely sick weak and suicidal, and want to ask for help but still can't cause don't want to be taken from my marital home of 15 years, in danger, and worthless, personality change, total utter sadness, and possible death, the end, after working in nurse role with family all day, so yes PTML, it is your greatest wish husband