i keep waking up with a scratchy or sore throat and idk what that’s abt. i have allergies and maybe that’s what it is, but it’s starting to freak me out. idk what’s going on w me, i’m still looking for a therapist. i think i may have sensorimotor ocd, pertaining to my breathing. i haven’t been able to stop thinking abt it for like seven whole months. it’s not an exaggeration. i’m miserable. i hâte this feeling, i hâte feeling like i’m gonna die everyday. it’s a terrible way to live, and what makes it even worse is that i wasn’t like this until abt seven months ago. i was diagnosed w panic disorder, and honestly i think my symptoms are more aligned w generalized anxiety disorder, being my pain and stuff is consistent w panic attacks. although they used to be p frequent, now it’s more like i’m anxious all the time, no peaks such as a panic attack, unless they’re tiny ones and i’m not thinking they’re panic attacks. idk, i’m just scared. i literalky have been doing nothing but watching tv. i don’t go outside anymore, i hate school, like i’m not even doing well (that’s frustrating bc school has always been easy for me). everything is just so stupid now, i want my life back and i feel like no one understands or is helping me. i hâte thinking abt my breathing so much that it literally feels i’m not breathing properly anymore. like tongue placement has changed, my awareness of it has led me to believe that my breathing is super loud and i can never be around anyone ever. like it’s so stupid, i feel so pathetic. i feel so alone and hopeless. i just want this to go away. #Anxiety #SensorimotorOCD #Pain #Breathing #hopelessness