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Invisible

Hello

Here I am.
'I'm OK' I say.
My smile tells you 'I'm normal'
It tells you, 'I'm coping. I'm thriving'

But you can't see in the dark.
You can't see me gulping for air
As my lungs compress and I shrink.
Tiny, I am.
A big world surrounds.
I'm not who you think I am.

I am lead.
Heavy, sinking down, down.
Noblood in my veins just pain
Oozing through my body.
Organs twist.
Mouth dries.
Cheeks are moist and eyes are glazed.

Here I am.
In the darkness.
I'm calling.

But you can't hear silence
The screams inside my head.
I'm so afraid, confused and numb.
Tiny, I am.
Shrunken.
Alone.
Behind the smile,
Under the skin.

A world unknown.

Here I am.