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Confused

For some #strange reason I stopped getting e-mail from this website.

My early childhood was chaotic. With physical and emotional abuse as far back as I could remember. I could also remember myself crying all the time because I could hear my heartbeat constantly. I didn't know how to tell my parents at the time. I couldn't sit on a bus because I was so sensitive to bumps on the road. If anything had a rhythm I would go crazy.
After college my breathing would make me panic. The incessant up and down of my chest made me say to myself "you cant control it" and I would get more nervous and pace for hours. Clocks and dance music would really bother me also.