strangerinastrangeland

I'm 48 & half the time I still don't recognize the person I see in the mirror. My body doesn't feel like mine, but like a holographic avatar in a really bad 3D movie about my life. Either that, or it all feels like the stereo of life is turned up to max and everyone is literally in my face - trust me, I live a quiet life, and even quiet feels too loud. Being healthier feels impossible because this body really doesn't feel like 'mine'.  Secret is, it never has.... (Undiagnosed, BTW, bc I'm afraid they'll tell me I'm 'normal')
#CheckInWithMe #Depersonalization , #alien ,

I've always struggled with fear when interacting with others. I struggle with: what people say & don't say and what it means and when, how much eye contact is too much, why can't we just come out and say things (I am blunt to a fault). I feel better interacting with someone who comes across as insensitive than I do interacting with someone polite. I feel like I'm too old to still be trying to figure this out.  #alien , #strangerinastrangeland ,