I was told monsters were creatures who lerked under my bed but this monster would lerk in it instead.
When the room was dark he’d come out to prey, I was little girl having her innocence taken away.
I was promised that these monsters couldn’t hurt me and I wanted it to be true, but no one ever warned me about monsters like you.
Was it my cheesy grin or my curly hair was it my silly behaviour or the jokes I would share?

Why did you choose me?
And why didn’t you stop when I would cry and plea?
I was a little girl why couldnt you see
You are a monster and you ruined me

You would call me your angel and say that you loved me
That I was everything you wanted a girl to be
That I was so perfect and so pretty.

But you see I refuse to let that be the end
And I refuse to let that be my story
I refuse to let you control my life
You don’t deserve that glory

I am strong and I will overcome
You are weak and nothing but scum
For so long I felt nothing but shame
For so long I felt like I was to blame
But I am a fighter, you won’t blow out my flame
Don’t call me your angel, that’s not my fucking name.

My name is Layna- Jean Mitchell and you no longer control me!

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