theywouldbebetteroffwithoutme

I honestly don't like this time of the year🤦🏿‍♀️, I feel my kids deserve a better parent. I bought them so many different gifts, feeling like those material thing would make them happy 😞... They were overjoyed with excitement about all of the toys and games etc, and I still feel like it wasn't enough 😔. I don't understand why I'm like this, I HATE FEELING LIKE A BAD MOM. I do so much to protect, provide and show them they mean the world to me, and it's not enough for me. I think they would be better with someone else.
#Depression #OverwhelmingSadness #theywouldbebetteroffwithoutme #theydeservebetter

My mum won't come home,
Because the house is a mess.
My mum won't come home,
Because it causes her stress.

My mum won't come home,
Because she hates this house.
It is my fault we are stuck here,
I know that now.

Moving out scares me a lot,
Mostly because of the help I require.
But it might be the only way to make,
All there lives a little lighter.

I don't know what to do,
I feel out of options.
My families in a living hell,
And it is my fault we got here.

#Poetry #feelingsodisappointedinmyself #theywouldbebetteroffwithoutme #Depression #Disability #idependenceisscary