About two years ago, I decided that my life was stalled due to fear of truly living. I decided that I want to break free of my fears and truly live my life. So I’m now married and as a consolation prize for truly living, I was awarded a miscarriage. 15 horrible weeks a pregnancy and a little life ended.

I think I was better off being afraid. I wasn’t missing anything. Any joy I had has been completely overwritten by this loss. I was so much better off not experiencing this loss. This loss makes me regret my own life. This is a nightmare that I can’t escape.

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