Wheresmyhappiness

My mom passed away a couple weeks ago, I’m sad. I didn’t get to see her before she passed. She’s in a care center and COVID made it impossible. I’m sad.
I’m away from my home, in another state, caring for my dad, who has COPD. He didn’t get to see her either, even though we tried. I’m doubly sad.
I’ve been away from my home for over 2 months now and I don’t miss my narcissistic husband. I’m sad.
I think I have any to divorce my narcissus husband. I’m sad.
I had a fight with my daughter. She doesn’t like me telling her not to yell at my grandson. I went overboard with my words now she thinks I think she’s a shit mom. I really don’t, I think she is awesome. But she doesn’t believe me now. I’m sad.
I’m sad, I’m lonely, I’m angry, I’m hurt, I’m overwhelmed with emotions that I can’t sort out! I’m just really super sad.

#Depression #Sadness
#notcoping #overwhelmedbylife #needanewstart
#Wheresmyhappiness

Why do I do things that only satisfy other people’s needs and not my own. . I know I won’t be happy if I do with what they want me to do . But I do it anyways cause it makes them happy . They say they will support me if whatever I do . But deep down I know they want to control me ! And of course i let them . #Wheresmyhappiness