#ashamed , embarrassed & #sad
So I have had #Asthma since I was 4 years old. As age progressed, my meds & care went from hourly and daily until virtually none in junior high. I take precautions & avoid what can cause an attack. I still have an attack once a year or every other year.
Fast forward to now with an employer I’ve had since January. The owner and manager of the small business seem to think I can schedule when I have health issues. Friday, I had my first #Asthma #attack in 2 years. I rushed to the ER before I passed out, and was told I had #Bronchitis that’s why my inhaler didn’t fully work for the attack.
I called in sick yesterday, because I had another attack. Both owner and manager asked, Why didn’t I tell them Saturday I wasn’t going to work yesterday? 😐 They’ve had bad luck w/employees in my position since the business started, so they think I’m being lazy or making an excuse. I work my butt off there and I’m happy to work there. This was my first job after 8 months of being a hermit. This job was my baby step back into the work #World .
However, I feel ashamed for being sick w/something I sometimes cannot control. I’m embarrassed, because both of them don’t believe me. Sad, because they think I would lie to them about something so serious.
I turned in my 2 weeks notice via email, because I’ve been crying off and on since yesterday afternoon (when they scolded me) I’m still #anxiously #Worried now and I feel so #betrayed .