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My Face Says it all today..

I'm not feeling *that* bad, physically. A little weak/sore, and rather sleepy/tired. I don't have my #narcolepsy meds until tomorrow so I'll end up napping at some point... But I can move around and I did get some things done today.

I'm mostly frustrated because I can't drive. I need to get to the store, but my husband is away and even if I had a car, I can't drive because aside from being terrified, I'm not sure I could do it anyway.

There's already so many noises and other big sensory input being just a passenger, actually controlling the car would be too much, I'm sure. I never learned, originally because no one wanted to teach me. But every time someone has tried since, I've had a meltdown/panic attack and had to stop very shortly into the lesson.

Most of my friends live too far to come here and take me, either. I hate that I can't do some things others can do easily.

Usually I wouldn't change anything about my #Autism . Usually I'm fine with it. But certain things like this get to me, especially because they get in my way of being independent. I should be patting myself on the back for accomplishing so much housework in the last few days, but instead, I'm stuck chiding myself for not being able to drive.

#IndependentLiving #AutisticAdults #Autisticandanxious #Autisticmind



#MightyPoets #Autisticandanxious Why am I so restless?
Why am I so still?
Sometimes I feel angry.
Sometimes I feel ill.

Little things I can’t control, send me in a spin.
Little things that should be fine, get underneath my skin.

I get all in a panic, I clench my jaw so tight.
Pins and needles in my body, prepare me for a fight.

I always feel so tired, from the whirlwind in my head.
I can’t relax my body til I’m fast asleep in bed.

I don’t know why I feel this way.
I wish it would just go.
How do I make it go away?
I hope one day I’ll know.