Everything that has happened to me over the course of two+ years is finally blowing up, coming out a big way. On one hand, it’s a relief to finally have things out in the open.. but I pushed it all down for so long that it’s so hard to accept and deal with. Of course it’s easier to hide from issues than to deal with them head on.. I’ve never been good at that.
But when you finally let it all out and accept that you need help and need to make changes in your life, it feels fantastic and scary all at the same time. Letting go of something that’s held my life in its death grip for so long feels like a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.
I hope that I take this opportunity for a fresh start seriously. I’m scared to fail. But every day I will wake up and promise to keep trying.