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So lately i've been resisting the urge to fight a video that OCD wants me to see and every time I see it, the urge doesn't leave and only gets stronger. I saw a post from someone saying a technique they use before they do a compulsion is to delay it and then do it and constantly delay it more every time until they don't do it anymore. OCD is using this against me so it gives me a reason to watch it and it's telling me that it's the only way l'll get over it.
Do listen to it or do I still resist and fight it because I know i'll get over it if i do that. #GettingHelp

Hi all,

Something weird is happening with the daily post in the type 2 diabetes community. Last week, I’ve written several posts that were for this community and it’s showing up on my personal account. This also happened yesterday when I thought I’ve posted the Tuesday question here.

So if you’ve noticed that there is a lag in the daily posts, this is likely the reason.

I’m not sure why this is happening, but I attend to reach out later today about this.

Has anyone else experienced this when posting in various groups?

#GettingHelp

!!!! Trigger warning !!!! Self harm !!!!

Got drunk, eight big 60mls, two joints and a blunt later, my thumb's muscle memory dialled him up. Remembering your ex's number is a tough thing. He came over to talk. Told me about everything he did! What he hid from, what he was feeling, why he pushed me all over again, his family issues..... his self harm and suicide ideation. And that he's getting help and is two sessions down. A lot more of those for him to go. He kept apologising, kept asking me to be mad at him. I already forgive him. Maybe I'm just too understanding (People pleaser tendencies? Savior complex?)

He told me around the lines of "I'm not healthy for you. And i don't want to hurt you again. So i left, pushed you away and didn't contact you."
Is it wrong for me to contact him? Have hopes? I care about him but i don't love him. Every time he told me he still loves me, i would cry out of guilt because i can't reciprocate his feelings. Why is it that every time i finally start get better he starts to get worse? And when he's getting better taking help, and steps I'm already gone, boundaries concrete thick.

I went over to his place so we could talk more. I opened the door to broken wine glasses with dried blood on a few shards. Puke on the side of his bed, cut up beer cans and bottles of wine. He cut himself. On his thighs and stomach, they did not seem deep enough to have caused too much blood loss, but still!

I still care about him. Could this be my savior complex? Because i don't love him the way i used to. But at the back of my head i have hope, not for us to get together, but for his recovery. He hasn't told anyone when or whom he's going to for therapy. I suggested to go with him, so it can maybe speed it up? Ik they call the clients family, friends etc to get a better understanding. I'm all up for it!
But i don't want to get together with him. I need to put myself first. But will time-limited-text-only be okay? Will it give him the wrong idea? What if he puts his entire direction to healing and growing enough so he doesn't hurt me. But will contact during this process hurt him? When he clearly has feeling for me. But i don't..... Not romantically at least.

Guide me Mighty! PLEASE!

#Relationships #relationshipanxiety #Anxiety #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Selfharm #GettingHelp #Loneliness #Anxiousattachment

My mom just has X-rays taken of her shoulders because they have been causing extreme pain in her arms. The doctors basically said her shoulders are so bad from arthritis that she’d need to have replacement surgery. The recovery stage involves not leaning on her shoulders so they told her that she does not qualify to get surgery because she is chair bound. In other words she is going to have to live with the pain for the rest of her life. Has anyone experienced this before? I just find it crazy that in today’s world, they haven’t figured out a way to be inclusive when it comes to helping people like my mom. Anyone have any thoughts or any advice on where to go from here?

It's been a month of my breakup with him. I miss him. But i hate him too. I hate him for destroying me. For taking my virginity and for taking my dignity. I hate him. I hate how he left me and didn't come back. I hate him for making me having to eat my antidepressant for my whole life. I hate him for making me 5 years of suffering. But i miss him but i hate him. Pls i hate guys. I hate guys ! !!!!!! #Depression #Anxiety #PTSD #Love #GettingHelp

Feeling really down and beating myself up. Could use some words of encouragement. Thanks.

#BipolarDepression #Selfcare #GettingHelp #CheckInWithMe

Coming down from a manic episode, feel so tired. Is this just a crash from the manic "up period" or am I going into a depressed episode? Is it inevitable or can I have a period of stability? That would be nice. LOL. I feel like everything is going so slow now. I'm doin g my best to practice self-care, for example I let myself sleep in (when I usually wake up super early). Anyone else with Bipolar suddenly come down from their manic episodes or is it gradual? Thanks for your input. It is appreciated.

#BipolarDisorder #GettingHelp #Depression #down #laughter #CheckInWithMe

Perhaps listening to music about child abuse isn't the most helpful but it did remind me of something. When the #SexualAbuse started I was a child. It is easier for me to say that I was sexually assaulted an adult than it is for me to say I was abused as a child. Child abuse just makes me cringe as it would with anyone. Sometimes it just hits you all over again. Those same emotions that I felt as a child, I feel again as an adult. Experiencing #EmotionalAbuse didn't help either. I now understand the effects it has had on me, not only was I diagnosed with #PTSD but it has taken a toll on my emotions (#BipolarDisorder and my personality #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder ) I understand that some of these disorders are inherited but I can't help but think that some of them are caused by my trauma. I know I am a survivor but that doesn't make it any easier. I've come far in my healing journey but I still stall and fall apart some days. I guess I shouldn't be so harsh on myself, after all it wasn't my fault but it still hits hard. What do you do on days like this?

#Abuse #AbuseSurvivors #PTSD #SexualAbuse #EmotionalAbuse #Childhoodtrauma #sad #GettingHelp #CheckInWithMe